Archive for September, 2011

Aida’s Story

September 19th, 2011 by Barb

Hi There,

I am new to this community. I wish I didn’t have to be part of this new ‘club’ of people who’ve lost a baby.
We had a beautiful baby girl born on August 19th (at 32 weeks gestation) and she lived until August 24th, 2011. It’s completely broken our family’s hearts. She was absolutely gorgeous and strong, healthy…
She developed NEC and she couldn’t fight hard enough. We lost her 5 days after we welcomed her into this world. Our whole world fell apart. I don’t know how to live on with out her…how to deal with the fact that I will never hold her again and never be able to take care of her.
I feel so much different emotions…I feel sad, robbed, empty, optimistic at times too that we can get through this.
I feel this strong urge to want a baby again although I know it’ll be a long time that’ll happen again and I’m so sad for that as well.
I just can’t believe this happened to us. Truly.

I am seeking for answers to what happened and why. Our girl was in the low percentile for her contracting NEC…so I still have a hard time figuring it out and coming to terms with this. This never should have happened to us. And yet it did. And it’s the most heart breaking thing in this world…

I hope our hearts will be mended.